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mondaytuesdaywednesdaythursdayfridaysaturdaysunday. all over so quickly isn't it? wonder how much time i have left...?

-was it a bar or a bat i saw- haha you gotta read that backwards :)
sometimes, you feel happy because you get to do things there and then, and you feel quite good doing it because you don't have any inhibitions. i wonder how long being happy will really make you happy. and the truth is that, probably, you won't. being happy for too long will make you worried about certain things, and when there is any ground at all for you to doubt what you are doing (what you are doing is supposed to make you feel happy), then probably you begin to doubt that you are actually happy with yourself. so in the end, you become less happy than you were, and even though you are still happy, you are also unhappy at the same time. see, the point is there must be a balance in life, and life is full of opposites. that means that life is also full of the-sames (since life is full of opposites). so that also means that there must also not be a balance in life. just like there is a forward, there is a backward.
so what's in the middle? what's the in-between? what's the intermediate? a balance of the 2 extremes? an inbalance of the 2 extremes? i know and i don't know. just like and unlike you know and you don't know.