not too sure with myself

it seems that she got quite affected by it.
i didn't know how to say it.
but it came out.
not sure if it came out right.
definitely not. right.
i just hope that she sees what i see in her.
that could very well make her christmas this year.
it's okay if you don't feel all too festive.
it's been like that for me for a few years now already.
the festive season is over-hyped. i'm sure all of you can agree with this.
but there. i took that first step.
there are many more steps.
and i'm not sure where i'm heading.
nonetheless, it's not zero progress after all.
so yay!

itching at a start.

i promise to get back to writing.
this is not the start.
at least not the start i dreamed of.
i have within me a mixed bag of feelings.
which i don't know how to unravel.
or how to interprete.
it does matter.
i have got noone else.
sometimes, i think it's right in front of my eyes.
or right beside me.
or just a few button-pressing away.
yet i got no balls for all that.
oh how sorry i am.

i hate the holidays

time untuk update sikit

i guessed the CAs caught up with me. good that half of the first round is over for now. still gotta chiong, but i guess deepavali did come at quite an opportune time. if only... ggxx.


PLAYHOUSE!
damn fun coz we won and we really did put in so much effort. i played mat operator (i hardly sound like a mat yet they all believed - shows you the degree of real malay mat exposure these med students get huh)




































MED RAYA CELEBRATION AT MY HOUSE.
I guess these kids don't really get invited to a malay house. After the curry chicken, everyone had the post-partum stupor. Killer.






















RI MATS JALAN RAYA!
This time lagi gerek, more better than last year. Coz got more people, didn't waste time with houses that we didn't really wanna go to, and got car. Hahahaha gerek sial. Only thing is that, maybe they didn't quite like what I did every time we stepped into the car. Nvm guys, you'll understand soon enough. :)

the most important thing on AIDILFITRI:

Asking for forgiveness from each other. Even God can't forgive this sorta thing.

(on another note, why was I not in blue again?)

hair evolution

somebody pls remind me to take a pic wearing the igal and posing like a terrorist with briefcase bomb and all, before i decide to shave. okay thank you.

finali iftar with jau this year