i have something to say

not too sure with myself

2008-12-25T21:59:00.002+08:00

it seems that she got quite affected by it.
i didn't know how to say it.
but it came out.
not sure if it came out right.
definitely not. right.
i just hope that she sees what i see in her.
that could very well make her christmas this year.
it's okay if you don't feel all too festive.
it's been like that for me for a few years now already.
the festive season is over-hyped. i'm sure all of you can agree with this.
but there. i took that first step.
there are many more steps.
and i'm not sure where i'm heading.
nonetheless, it's not zero progress after all.
so yay!

itching at a start.

2008-12-24T18:19:00.002+08:00

i promise to get back to writing.
this is not the start.
at least not the start i dreamed of.
i have within me a mixed bag of feelings.
which i don't know how to unravel.
or how to interprete.
it does matter.
i have got noone else.
sometimes, i think it's right in front of my eyes.
or right beside me.
or just a few button-pressing away.
yet i got no balls for all that.
oh how sorry i am.

2007-12-15T00:02:00.000+08:00

i hate the holidays

time untuk update sikit

2007-11-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

i guessed the CAs caught up with me. good that half of the first round is over for now. still gotta chiong, but i guess deepavali did come at quite an opportune time. if only... ggxx.

PLAYHOUSE!
damn fun coz we won and we really did put in so much effort. i played mat operator (i hardly sound like a mat yet they all believed - shows you the degree of real malay mat exposure these med students get huh)

MED RAYA CELEBRATION AT MY HOUSE.
I guess these kids don't really get invited to a malay house. After the curry chicken, everyone had the post-partum stupor. Killer.

RI MATS JALAN RAYA!
This time lagi gerek, more better than last year. Coz got more people, didn't waste time with houses that we didn't really wanna go to, and got car. Hahahaha gerek sial. Only thing is that, maybe they didn't quite like what I did every time we stepped into the car. Nvm guys, you'll understand soon enough. :)

the most important thing on AIDILFITRI:

2007-10-15T23:22:00.001+08:00

Asking for forgiveness from each other. Even God can't forgive this sorta thing.

(on another note, why was I not in blue again?)

hair evolution

2007-10-11T00:48:00.001+08:00

somebody pls remind me to take a pic wearing the igal and posing like a terrorist with briefcase bomb and all, before i decide to shave. okay thank you.

finali iftar with jau this year

2007-09-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

hotbodkeapa?

2007-09-18T13:00:00.000+08:00

hallo before you do anything else,

type this onto your url - http://medsoc.org.sg/pulse

and then once you are there click on Articles - Lifestyle

and then enjoy!

hahahahaha

what i've been up to lately...

2007-09-02T01:12:00.001+08:00

'tis what i do besides attending lectures starting 8am everyday.

experience

2007-08-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

pharmacology, neuroscience, pathology, microbiology, immunology, cofm.

Those are what I have to tackle this year. A lot. And a lot of work. First week of school and I haven't gone through a single lecture without falling asleep each time. I hope I can regain the spirit of sem2 last year, when everything I needed was organised. This weekend, time to sort out everything. Every weekend, must do upkeeping. Then only will I be able to hit the ground running.

On another note. Hakim asked me to share that experience that I had at Punggol in front of the whole audience during MS welcome tea. It was a very special experience for me, it had been like a very powerful reminder for why I chose this path. To think that someone else really remembered this experience makes it even more special. It was a message from God. And I even feel that God has chosen this path for me. I don't think I managed to share that experience as vividly as what I felt inside. Maybe I should have shared the context a little better. It came at such a trying time for me because I have never felt that low in my academic life before. Pardon my limited power of language. But it was earnest and honest - and I still believe in signs from God. I hope everyone responds to their signs from God too one day.

And to think that it's been a year into my term in MS Exco. It's been quite a journey sia, love 'em! :)

so what did u do on national day?

2007-08-10T01:31:00.000+08:00

On National Day today, Jau, Pravin, joel Louis, Jia Lun and myself took part in the Mens Open Fun Touch and got third. Hahahahahahahaha. We called ourselves DISRUPTICONS, for obvious reason. Thanks to our one and only loyal supporter, Tousif, for holding Pravin's specs, and looking after our valuables and also taking pics. Thanks also to Ivan Maulana our by-accident-or-by-chance supporter, who was of entertainment value. And we met Mr Azhar! Hahahaha it was quite nice. He was with KINS and we sort of had a mutual friendship between his team and our team. The only team photo we had was using his camera. Wasted. Hahahaha but we don't care that we lost the semis. Rather narrowly too I must say, 2-2 after full time and they scored once during extra time. Never mind doesn't matter. Felt really nice and awesome scoring so many many many tries. Hahahahahaha.

Oh and on Wednesday I also went for Pentas Budaya. I thought the first group should have won. But nevermind... the Mahathir show was awesome too. Hahahahaha kelakar pecah perut.

fantastic fantastic read. praise be to God.

2007-08-06T01:19:00.001+08:00

Miracle Of Al-Isra & Al-Miraj

(The night journey and the ascension of Prophet Muhammad Peace Be Upon Him)

Praise be to Allah, the Lord of t he Worlds, the One Who exists without a place. To Him belong the endowments and proper commendations. May Allah raise the rank of Prophet Muhammad and his kind Al and Companions and protect his nation from what he fears for them. May the Lord of Heavens and Earth grant us the sincere intentions and guide us to the acceptable deeds.

Thereafter, Allah sent the prophets as a mercy to the slaves and supported them with miracles to indicate the truthfulness of their message. Of all the prophets, our Prophet, Muhammad, was blessed with the most miracles. Al-Isra' and al-Mi^raj are among the many miracles of Prophet Muhammad.

The miracle of al-Isra' is confirmed in the Qur'an. In Surat al-Isra', Ayah 1, Allah said:

which means: [Praise be to Allah Who enabled His slave, Muhammad, to make the journey at night from Masjid al-Haram in Makkah to Masjid al-Aqsa in Jerusalem, which is surrounded a blessed land.] This journey is also confirmed in the sahih hadith. As such, there is scholarly consensus (ijma^) Prophet Muhammad journeyed in body and soul the night of al-Isra' from Masjid al-Haram in Makkah to Masjid al-Aqsain Jerusalem. Moreover, these scholars indicated the person who denies al-Isra' is a blasphemer for belying the explicit text of the Qur'an.

Before the Prophet took this night journey, the ceiling of the house in which he was staying was opened, and Jibril descended. He cut open the chest of Prophet Muhammad and washed that open area with Zamzam water. Then he emptied something from a container into the chest of the Prophet to increase his wisdom as well as the strength of his belief. This was done to prepare the Messenger of Allah for that which he had yet to see in the upper world from among the wonders of the creation of Allah.

Al-Isra'

After the Prophet performed the Evening Prayer (^Isha'), Jibril came to him with a white animal, slightly larger than a donkey yet smaller than a mule. This animal was the buraq,--one of the animals of Paradise. Jibril held the buraq by his ear and told the Prophet to mount it. When the buraq was mounted, the Prophet set forth.

The buraqis a very fast animal; the length of the buraq's stride is the farthest distance it's eye can see. The Prophet and Jibril arrived to a land with palm trees. Jibril told the Prophet to dismount and pray, so the Prophet dismounted the buraq and prayed two rak^as. Jibril asked him, "Do you know where you prayed?" and the Prophet answered, "Allah knows best." Jibril told him, "This is Yathrib; this is Taybah. "." (These are two names for the city of al-Madinah.) Before the Prophet emigrated to al-Madinah, it was called Taybah and Yathrib. It earned the name al-Madinah after the Prophet emigrated to it.

The buraq continued with the Prophet and Jibril until they reached another place. Again Jibril told the Prophet to get down and pray. The Prophet dismounted there and prayed two rak^as. Jibril informed the Prophet of the name of that place; it was Tur Sina'.

Once again the buraq took off with the Prophet and Jibril. Once again it stopped, and the Prophet dismounted and prayed two rak^as. This was in Bayt Lahm, where Prophet ^Isa (Jesus) was born. Then the buraq continued with the Messenger of Allah until they entered the city of Jerusalem. There the Prophet went to Masjid al-Aqsa. Outside was a ring used by the Messengers of Allah to tie their animals. The Prophet tied his buraq to this ring. Then the Prophet entered the masjid where Allah assembled for him all the Prophets--from Adam to ^Isa. Prophet Muhammad moved forward and led them all in prayer. This is an indication the Prophet is higher in status than all the rest of the prophets and messengers.

1- On Prophet Muhammad's journey from Masjid al-Haram to Masjid al-Aqsa, Allah enabled him to see some of His wondrous creations. Allah enabled the Prophet to see the world (dunya) like an old woman. However, this old woman was wearing a great deal of jewelry, and in this there is an indication signifying the reality of the world.

2- Allah enabled the Prophet to see Iblis. The Prophet saw something on the side of the road which did not dare to stand in his way or speak to him. What the Prophet saw was Iblis. Originally, Iblis was a believer and lived with the angels in Paradise. When Allah ordered the angels to prostrate (sujud) to Prophet Adam, Iblis was ordered to prostrate to him as well. The angels prostrated to Adam in obedience to Allah, because angels do not disobey Allah. However, Iblis did not obey, and he objected to the order of Allah. He said, "You created me out of fire, and You created him out of clay. How do You order me to prostrate to him?" So this objection by Iblis to the order of Allah was the first blasphemy he committed.

3- On his journey, the Prophet smelled a very nice odor. He asked Jibril about this pleasant scent and Jibril informed him this good smell was coming from the grave of the woman whose duty used to be to comb Pharaoh's daughter's hair. This woman was a good, pious believer. One day, as she was combing Pharaoh's daughter's hair, the comb fell from her hand. At this she said, ""Bismillah. "Pharaoh's daughter asked her, "Do you have a god other than my father?" The woman said, "Yes. My Lord and the Lord of your father is Allah." Pharaoh's daughter told her father what had happened. Pharaoh demanded this woman blaspheme and leave Islam, but she refused. At that, Pharaoh threatened to kill her children. He brought a great pot of water and built a great fire under it. When the water boiled, Pharaoh brought her children and started to drop them into that pot one after the other. Throughout all this, the woman remained steadfast to Islam, even when Pharaoh reached her youngest child--a little boy still breast feeding--but she felt pity for him. At that, Allah enabled this child to speak. He said to his mother, "O Mother, be patient. The torture of the Hereafter is far more severe than the torture of this life, and do not be reluctant, because you are right." At this the woman requested Pharaoh collect her bones and the bones of her children and bury them in the same grave. Pharaoh promised her that--then dropped her into that boiling water. She died as a martyr. The good odor the Prophet smelled coming from her grave is an indication of her high status.

4- During his trip, the Prophet saw people who were planting and reaping in two days. Jibril told the Prophet, "These were the people who fight for the sake of Allah (mujahidun). ")."

5- The Prophet also saw people whose lips and tongues were clipped with scissors made of fire. Jibril told the Prophet, "These are the speakers of sedition (fitna) who call people to misguidance."

6- He also saw a bull which exited a very small outlet, then was trying in vain to return through that small outlet. Jibril told the Prophet, "This is the example of the bad word--once spoken, it cannot be returned."

7- The Prophet saw people grazing like animals, with very little clothing on their private parts. Jibril told the Prophet, "These are the ones who refused to pay zakat. "."

8- The Prophet saw angels smashing some people's heads with rocks. These heads would return to the shape they had been, and then the angels would smash their heads again--and so on. Jibril told the Prophet, "These are the ones whose heads felt too heavy to perform prayer--the ones who used to sleep without praying."

9- On his journey the Prophet saw people who were competing to eat some rotten meat--ignoring meat that was sliced and unspoiled. Jibril told the Prophet, "These are people from your nation who leave out that which is permissible (halal), and consume that which is forbidden ((haram). "This reference was to the fornicators, that is, the ones who left out the permissible (marriage) and committed sins (fornication).

10- Also, the Prophet saw people who were drinking from the fluid coming from the bodies of the fornicators, (water mixed with blood). Jibril indicated to the Prophet these were the ones who were drinking the alcohol which is prohibited in this world.

11- The Prophet saw people scratching their faces and chests with brass finger nails. Jibril said, "These are the examples of those who commit gossip ((ghibah). ")."

Al-Mi^raj

1- After the Prophet took this night journey from Masjid al-Haram to Masjid al-Aqsa, he ascended to the upper heavens. The Prophet ascended to the heaven on stairs, called al-mirqat, in which one step is made of gold and the next of silver, and so on. These stairs are veiled from us. The Prophet ascended these stairs until he reached the first heaven. When the Prophet and Jibril arrived at the first heaven, Jibril requested the gate to be opened. The angel assigned to that gate asked Jibril, "Who is with you?" Jibril answered, "It is Muhammad." The angel asked Jibril, "Was he dispatched? Is it time for him to ascend to the heaven?" Jibril said, "Yes." So, the gate was opened for him, and Prophet Muhammad entered the first heaven.

There, Prophet Muhammad saw Prophet Adam. To Adam's right, the Prophet saw some bodies, and to Adam's left, other bodies. If Adam would look to his right he would laugh, and if he would look to his left he would cry. Adam was seeing the souls of his descendants. Those on his right were his descendants who would die as believers and those on his left were his descendants who would die as non-believers.

Then the Prophet ascended to the second heaven. In this second heaven was where Prophet Muhammad saw Prophets ^Isa and Yahya. ^Isa and Yahya are cousins; their mothers were sisters. They welcomed the Prophet and made supplication (du^a') for him for good things. The Prophet ascended to the third heaven, where he found Prophet Yusuf. Prophet Yusuf was extremely handsome. Allah bestowed half the beauty on Yusuf. Yusuf received the Prophet with a warm welcome and made supplication (du^a') for him for good things.

Then the Prophet ascended to the fourth heaven, where he found Prophet Idris. Idris welcomed the Prophet and made supplication (du^a') for him for good things. In the fifth heaven, the Prophet encountered Harun, the brother of Prophet Musa. In the sixth heaven, he encountered Prophet Musa. Each of these Prophets received Prophet Muhammad with a warm welcome and made supplication (du^a')') for him for good things.

Then the Prophet ascended to the seventh heaven, and that is where our Messenger saw Prophet Ibrahim. Prophet Ibrahim is the best of the prophets after our prophet, Muhammad. The Prophet saw Prophet Ibrahim with his back against al-Bayt al-Ma^mur. To the inhabitants of the skies, al-Bayt al-Ma^mur is like the Ka^bah is to us, the inhabitants of the earth. Every day 70,000 angels go there; then exit from it, and never return. The next day another 70,000 angels go, come out, and never return. This will continue until the Day of Judgment. In this, there is an indication as to the greatness of the numbers of the angels--their numbers are far more than the numbers of the humans and the jinns together.

In the seventh heaven, Prophet Muhammad saw Sidrat al-Muntaha--a very big tree of sidr. Each of the fruits of this tree is as large as a big jar. The leaves of this tree are similar to the ears of the elephants. Sidrat al-Muntahais an extremely beautiful tree. It is visited by butterflies made of gold. When these butterflies gather on this tree, its beauty is beyond description.

Then the Prophet ascended to what is beyond the seven skies; he entered Paradise. He saw examples of the inhabitants of Paradise and how their situation would be. He saw most of the inhabitants of Paradise are the poor people .

The Prophet saw other things on the night of his ascension. He saw Malik, the angel in charge of the Hellfire. Malik did not smile at the Prophet when he saw him, and the Prophet asked why. In answer to the Prophet's question, Jibril said, "Malik did not smile since the day Allah created him. Had he smiled for anyone, he would have smiled for you."

In Paradise, the Prophet saw some of the bounties Allah prepared for the inhabitants of Paradise. He saw the Hur ul-^In: females Allah created who are not humans or jinn. They are in Paradise and will be married to those men Allah willed them to marry.

The Prophet saw the wildan ul-mukhalladun: creations of Allah who are not human, jinn, or angels. They are a very beautiful creation of Allah whose appearance is like laid-out pearls. They are servants of the inhabitants of Paradise. The least in status of the People of Paradise will have 10,000 wildan ul-mukhalladun to serve him. Each one of them would carry a tray of gold in one hand and a tray of silver in the other hand.

The Prophet saw the Throne (^Arsh), which is the ceiling of Paradise. The Throne is the largest creation of Allah in size; Allah did not create anything bigger in size than it. The seven heavens and the earth in comparison to the Kursiyy, are like a ring thrown in a desert, and the Kursiyy in comparison to the Throne, is like a ring thrown in a desert. The seven heavens and the earth in comparison to the Throne are like a seed of mustard compared to the ocean. Allah created the Throne as a sign of His Power and He did not create the Throne to sit on it.

Allah created the Throne to show His Power. It is carried by four angels, and on the Day of Judgment, it will be carried by eight. The Prophet said he was permitted to speak about one of these angels who carry the Throne. In describing this angel, the Prophet told us the distance between his ear lobe and shoulder is the distance a fast-flying bird would cover in 700 years.

Then the Prophet ascended beyond Paradise. He reached a place where he heard the creaking of the pens used by the angels who are copying from the Preserved Tablet. It is at that location Prophet Muhammad heard the Kalam of Allah, which is an attribute of the Self of Allah. He heard the Kalam of Allah which does not resemble our speech--so it is not something that occurs bit after bit. It is not letter after letter or a word that comes after another word. Rather, it is an attribute of Allah which is eternal and everlasting. It does not resemble our attributes. The Kalam of Allah has neither silence nor interruptions. It is an attribute of Allah, and it does not resemble the attributes of the creation.

The Prophet understood several things from hearing this Kalam of Allah. He understood the obligation of the five Obligatory Prayers. At first, Allah obligated fifty prayers. When Prophet Muhammad encountered Musa, Musa told him to make supplication (du^a') to his Lord to ease the obligation of fifty (50) prayers, because his nation could not handle that. Musa said, "I have experience with the people of Israel, and I know your nation cannot bear that." So the Prophet asked his Lord to lessen these prayers for his people. Five prayers were eliminated. Once again, Musa told the Prophet to ask Allah to lessen the number of prayers. Allah did. Nine times the Prophet made supplication to Allah to lessen these prayers--until these prayers were lessened to five Obligatory Prayers. So Prophet Musa was a great benefit to us. Had we been obligated to pray fifty prayers a day, this would have been a difficult matter for us.

From the Kalam of Allah, the Prophet also understood that a good deed would be written for the person who intends to do a good deed, even if he did not do it. Also, the good deed performed would be registered for he who performs it as at least ten good deeds--up to 700 good deeds. For some people, Allah would multiply the reward of their deeds more than that. Additionally, if one performs a bad deed, it is registered for him as one bad deed; yet for he who inclines towards committing a bad deed and then refrains from committing it, a good deed would be registered for him. Here one should note the difference between two matters. If a thought crossed a person's mind about doing something sinful, and this person wavered in this thinking, i.e., considered whether he should do it or not, then he refrained from doing this for the sake of Allah, this is written as a good deed. However, if a person has the firm intention in his heart that he wants to commit a sin, it would be written for him as a sin, even if he does not do it.

The Prophet Returns to Makkah

After all these matters took place with the Prophet, he returned to the city of Makkah. Some scholars said the Prophet's journey took about one-third of the night, i.e., his journey from Makkah to Jerusalem, then to the heavens and what is above them, and then back to Makkah The next day the Prophet told the people what happened to him the previous night. The blasphemers belied the Prophet and mocked him, saying, "We need a month to get there and back, and you are claiming to have done all this in one night?" They said to Abu Bakr, "Look at what your companion is saying. He says he went to Jerusalem and came back in one night." Abu Bakr told them, "If he said that, then he is truthful. I believe him concerning the news of the heavens--that an angel descends to him from the heavens. How could I not believe he went to Jerusalem and came back in a short period of time--when these are on earth?" At that, the Companion, Abu Bakr, was called "as-Siddiq"--because of how strongly he believed all what the Prophet said.

The blasphemous people questioned the Prophet: "If you are truthful, then describe to us Masjid al-Aqsa and its surroundings." They asked this because they knew Prophet Muhammad had never been there before the previous night. Allah enabled the Messenger to see Masjid al-Aqsa, and he described the masjid and its surroundings in exact detail. Moreover, the Prophet said, "On my way back, I saw some of your shepherds grazing their animals in a particular location. They were searching for a camel they had lost." The Prophet continued by giving the description of the camel. When these shepherds came back, they told their people what happened to them--precisely as the Prophet had already told them.

These blasphemers admitted the Prophet's description was exact. Despite that, they were still stubborn and rejected the faith. They did not accept Islam. Only those whom Allah willed to be guided, will be guided. The person whom Allah did not will to be guided, will not believe--regardless of how much explanation or how many proofs he is shown. The person whom Allah willed to be guided, surely he will be a believer. Many people witnessed miracles and still did not believe. Many people witnessed the miracle of the Prophet's splitting of the moon. Those who refused to embrace Islam said, "This is magic. Muhammad played a magic trick on our eyes." They even asked the people of a faraway land who witnessed the moon split in two. Despite this, they still did not believe. They said, "The magic of Muhammad is powerful; it even reached the faraway lands!" This was their response to witnessing a miracle--instead of believing and becoming Muslims.

We ask Allah that we would all die as Muslims. We ask Allah to bestow on us the bounty of entering Paradise without torture.

And Allah knows best.

http://www.geocities.com/islamicmiracles/miracle_of_al.htm

wowwee

2007-07-30T14:08:00.001+08:00

guys, enjoy this.

weekend@changi

2007-07-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

Wahlau. First, Friday anyhow-soccer-kick-about-in-school got cancelled. But oklah considering it rained quite heavily and I don't wanna play in the mud. Then Saturday soccer also got last minute venue changes and finally got cancelled. Also thanks to the rain. Then tomorrow, the supposed Batam Cable Ski also also got cancelled coz too few people. Wonder what else will get cancelled.

But MSA was fun. PBM Anugerah also quite fun. Haha sent so many people home too.

ooiiiii

2007-07-24T18:18:00.000+08:00

ZAT, IYLIA, ADZ, RUDY, JAU KOPIIIIII BILA NAK KELUAR??? SEKOLAH DAH NAK BUKAK LAHHHHHHH CEPATTTTTT!!

(ok technically in the picture, Kopi is not present. Dani is instead.)

football fantasy

2007-07-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

It's damn shiok this summer. Firstly, can watch Copa America. Secondly, can watch Asian Cup. If only they also show the Fifa U20 World Championships in Canada. They said that the US team beat Brazil in that competition. And it also unearthed so many of the current crazy football gods playing now like Messi and co. By right, Messi is still young enough to play in it! But he's deemed too good so now he's in the senior side. Wahlau see? That is what you call super talented. If only I can play sexy football. Then can everyday play football, earn good money and be watched (and appreciated) by millions. Plus, make commercials! No need study so hard! Haha but God is fair :)

BATAMMANIA!

2007-06-26T01:45:00.001+08:00

babes@fourseasons

2007-06-18T21:53:00.000+08:00

That day...
I SAW MAGGIE Q IN PERSON.

SHE HAD ONLY A BLACK BRA AND SWEAT PANTS ON!!!

And since I started work,
I've met and greeted Denise Keller, Fiona Xie and Jaime Ong too.
Not bad huh?

oh miss lourdes

2007-06-10T20:20:00.000+08:00

To tell you the truth
i've gone through the roof
yet i'm still here
coz she was so near
yet she left today
it's my loss i've to say
i can only now imagine
miss lourdes in my think engine
yet her image and her gaze
still linger long in the haze
of the sexy long drag
she took out of her fag
i peeped and peeped
hoping not for a tip
by the pillar she stood
getting down in the mood
what the hell was i waiting for
but i was holding the door
yet all i could muster
was to simply just wish her
hello goodbye ma'am
somehow maybe she doesn't give a damn
crap oh crap she was actually smiling
at me! AT ME! her hair, she gave a deft fling
oh no so what should i do now?
holy mother holy cow
what the hell was i waiting for...
she had no bra on some more!
she turned back, glanced once more
then i just closed back the door
oversized tee over hot pants
i knew i was so tense
on the next day at the foyer
a halter sundress on her slim figure
she smiled, wished me back, but i was mute
iguana tattoo on her shoulder blade, cute!
then this noon
no more sugar left on the spoon
coz she has left for up north
i wonder why i didn't come forth
oh miss lourdes, miss lourdes
i've got so much hots
come back to Singapore
for you, i'll open the door.

dedicated to miss lourdes, my babe whose first name i don't even know. i hope you can somehow find this, miss lourdes.

ggxx

2007-05-31T23:23:00.000+08:00

sometimes, you are suddenly alone, and you start thinking to yourself:
Why am I so lousy, useless and have absolutely no talent?

haiya life still sucks.

life sucks

2007-05-26T01:06:00.001+08:00

i think i have no friends anymore.
nobody wants to go out with me too.

MUNUS

2007-05-24T22:01:00.001+08:00

Hey check this out! We look quite boyband right? Hahahaha. Siala damn cool photography from Jonk lah.

Check out our chillax time while at MUNUS '07 in KL last weekend.

http://jonkk.multiply.com/photos/album/65

MUNUS

2007-05-17T16:45:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow I'm going KL with other Medicine people. Saturday we're gonna watch FA Cup Final together, probably somewhere out (heard Bangsar is gonna have something going on). Then Sunday night we'll come back. And Monday is probably the day I resume work.

I just think...

2007-05-14T23:22:00.000+08:00

girls don't know what they're missing.

flyin'

2007-05-07T16:51:00.000+08:00

Girl: So you Eurasian? Or mixed?
Me: Huh, no. I'm Malay. Why?
Girl: OH! Couldn't tell.

Girl: So you must be very smart..
Me: Err no la *shy*
Girl: Raffles?
Me: Yeah.
Girl: So smart.
Me: *blush*

Keep stroking my ego. I'm stoked!

WHY

2007-05-03T15:48:00.000+08:00

Why do some people post more entries about them studying than do the actual studying itself?
It just puzzles me, really.

indian thriller with english subtitles!

2007-04-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

CHECK THIS OUT!

MAGICAL!!!

2007-04-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

I received a text message from a friend in the early morning, seconds after Rooney's magnificent winnner. It read simply, "MAGICAL!"

What if Chelsea players defected to Manchester United? The most formidable team ever?

The team of the season? At the moment, Chelsea and Manchester United are presenting pretty compelling cases, intent on securing an historic quadruple and treble respectively.

A select 11 comprising of the finest players from both would therefore (logically, anyway) be nigh-on unstoppable. In the selection process, however, egos would be ruffled, some of the stand-out performers reluctantly omitted and Kieran Richardson discarded as rapidly as possible.

But who would make the final cut? The first choice is perhaps the simplest. Edwin van der Sar is probably Manchester United's best goalkeeper since Peter Schmeichel yet, as his recent fallibility illustrates, he is no Petr Cech. The man Jose Mourinho trumpeted as the world's leading keeper did not concede a Premiership goal for three months before Carlos Tevez drew the rarest of errors; had Cech been fit all season - and given that he has only let in five league goals in the campaign - Mourinho's suggestion that Chelsea would be leading the title race is not too fanciful. Chelsea also possess the most buccaneering, brilliant right-back. Except that Michael Essien, the man who earned them their place in the Champions League semi-finals from that position, has only started there twice, even though he has often been moved to the right flank during proceedings. Given right-back is Chelsea's problem position and that it has been another season of quiet consistency from Gary Neville, the Manchester United captain is an automatic selection. On the left, there are four alternatives. Ashley Cole's admirers are never slow to describe him as the world's best, yet his Chelsea form has been no better than that of his supposed deputy, Wayne Bridge. A personal preference is for the rugged combativity of Gabriel Heinze, but for much of the season he has understudied Patrice Evra, so the Frenchman gets the nod, just. In the centre of defence, there are three regular partnerships to consider, including that of John Terry and Rio Ferdinand. However, their international alliance is much the least convincing of the trio, though all are composed of an aggressive, ball-winning centre-half complemented by a silkier, smoother partner, who has a greater emphasis on reading the game. Given Ferdinand's improvement can be attributed to his pairing with Nemanja Vidic - though the Englishman can remain annoyingly casual - the Serb's influence should not be underestimated. Ricardo Carvalho, meanwhile, has often been the undervalued member of the Chelsea couple at the back before recognition came from Mourinho, calling him the finest central defender in world football. There is a hint of hyperbole, but praise was due and the Portuguese forms a new duo at the back with Vidic in this team. The central midfield positions are as fiercely contested, pitting elegance and invention against energy and effectiveness. Manchester United offer rhythm, cohesion and a dedication to passing in the shape of Michael Carrick and Paul Scholes. Chelsea provide other qualities. With Claude Makelele on the wane, John Obi Mikel emerging and Michael Ballack yet to replicate his Germany or Bayern Munich form on a regular basis, their strongest contenders are Essien and Frank Lampard. The Ghanaian has dynamism in abundance, his indefatigability, remarkable stamina and versatility making him one of the season's stellar performers. Lampard's contribution can be measured in statistics; 21 goals, even before his assists are counted. If his gracelessness and refusal to accept criticism hardly endears, he edges out Scholes with Essien preferred as the ball-winner.

On either flank, and while selecting a regulation 4-4-2 - and not any of Mourinho's many midfield configurations - may favour United, the choices are simple. Injuries have meant that Joe Cole and Arjen Robben's contributions to the campaign have been too sporadic, so Ryan Giggs and Cristiano Ronaldo it is.

The beguiling, enchanting Portuguese has captivated and his choice here is another, less prestigious, accolade for the Player and Young Player of the Year. Giggs, however, has had almost the same significance to United, accompanying the pace and dribbling ability he always possessed with enduring class and the development of other aspects of his game. In attack, and unusually for successful sides, there is a shortage of out-and-out strikers. Henrik Larsson has departed, Alan Smith's season is belatedly starting and Ole Gunnar Solskjaer and Salomon Kalou, though at opposite ends of the age spectrum, are equivalents, substitutes when it matters most. Didier Drogba's imposing physicality and hitherto undiscovered (in England, anyway) productivity in front of goal mean his selection cannot be queried, and he should benefit from the service of the two wingers. Despite glimpses of the real Andriy Shevchenko in 2007, the Ivorian will be in tandem with Wayne Rooney, whose form has fluctuated but whose talent is undeniable. That means the majority of the side are plucked from Manchester United. But, as AC Milan and Liverpool attempt to end the duopoly of the Premiership's big two this season in the Champions League semi-finals, they should at least be grateful that they are not facing all of the following 11: Cech (Chelsea); Neville (Manchester United), Carvalho (Chelsea), Vidic (Manchester United), Evra (Manchester United); Ronaldo (Manchester United), Essien (Chelsea), Lampard (Chelsea), Giggs (Manchester United); Drogba (Chelsea), Rooney (Manchester United).

Personally, i don't agree with Lampard. It should have been Scholes instead.

united!united!

2007-04-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

i dunno what to blog anymore.
i dun wanna sound sissy telling you my life story.
i wish my life story was more exciting.
i wish i was away in europe on a man utd-end-of-the-season-matches-tour.
i spend my time eating, if not sleeping.
i have three shelves full of M1 stuff that has to be cleared to make space for M2 (hopefully InsyaAllah!)
i wish i was already a doctor now.
i had no life when school was on.
then i had exams.
then in the holidays, i still have no life.
I WISH FOR A MANCHESTER UNITED VICTORY TONIGHT OVER AC MILAN!

done!

2007-04-18T18:39:00.000+08:00

Hey the exams are over! hahahaha! No more exams so it's gonna be 3-4 months of holidays. Unless, must go back for the dreaded vivas and supps. Err, nvm, not for me to decide. Will know when they announce it. But right now, I will have no qualms or worries about staying up late to catch all of United's matches. Not that I haven't been watching them throughout the exams. Hahahaha. Come on United!

Favourite terrace chants of United Fans:

Mourinho... are you listening?
You better keep your trophy glistenin'
We'll be back in May
To take it away
Walking in Fergie wonderland

a bout of medical cartoons

2007-04-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

Don't study so much. Watch cartoons!

FREE CONE DAY @ B&J!

2007-04-07T13:18:00.000+08:00

dear mr mourinho,

2007-03-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

absolute clarity!

2007-03-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

public announcement for kopi and adz:

2007-03-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

GODHELPME

2007-03-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

Post-CA2 sentiments:
Anat OK
Physio OK (in fact, more than OK!)
Biochem KO!

ARGH Biochem Biochem, why so difficult? And it's gonna be fully essay-format for Pros. That's not gonna make it any easier. Thank God for Anat and Physio having MCQs again!

Biochem, you should be officially renamed to Biocheem!

chill

2007-03-15T01:02:00.000+08:00

CAs are over and I feel much better than the CAs for the previous semester. Can't wait for the Friday latenights with the guys at the usual place. But probably got to watch it also. Coz the Pros are gonna strike any time, hopefully with enough time for me to study and practise first.

Then hopefully, I can get through unscathed and plan for a more meaningful holiday. I think a job would do me a lot of good. Plus a drive up.

But right now, it's the OC Season 1 just so I am really chill.

SO, chill.

Still can't really believe that M1 has almost ended just like that. 1 year of medical education, so fast yet so much already taught and so much more to be learnt. We have no more lessons now. All our lessons are completed. So we don't have to go to school anymore. It's just the prep period for the Pros now and after that, if you pass, you are through to M2. And 3 full months of holiday.

But tomorrow morning, first thing, go for a run.

adipose tissue excess

2007-03-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

Today, I found out that my body fat index was a 28.
And according to the reference range, above a 24 is considered unhealthy.
Good is around 20-21.
I'm not sure how accurate this test is, considering it measured my weight and my height and then using some formula, worked out my body fat index. May be a bit dodgy. Unlike the Body Mass Index formula.
But I sure don't want high LDL-cholesterol levels. Don't want any risk for atherosclerosis, diabetes mellitus, kidney failure, etc.
So it is a sign that I need to start running again.

Until I get to this level.

mylove

2007-02-23T14:30:00.000+08:00

check out www.happeepill.com!

2007-02-23T14:27:00.000+08:00

the kite runner

2007-02-17T15:59:00.000+08:00

I finished reading The Kite Runner.

I know now why I truly enjoyed reading the book. There were so many episodes in the book that described medical conditions so vividly. I was rather amused at the writer's profound knowledge about medicine and pathological symptoms. Turns out, the writer's a doctor! And how amazing isn't it? An Afghan doctor who is also a brilliant writer. Khaled Hosseini - his books are to be watched out for.

God gives you talent. Just what it truly is, it's for you to find out.

clear

2007-02-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

mediocre grades?
not gonna stop me from enjoying my books, enjoying my theater, enjoying my football, my television or my sheesha.

at the end of the day, i know what i want and that is all that i am working towards.

reading The Kite Runner. that's my escape, my exit, my one-way ticket, my sortie. an incredibly riveting and powerful story.

this, this was not the way i intended this entry to turn out. it could be better. but that's not important.

what study?

2007-01-28T17:04:00.000+08:00

An extra crazy weekend that was totally unrelated to the hustle and bustle of studying medicine.

Thursday night:
NAFA Malay Drama Presentation at NAFA with the DSL gang
followed by supper at Al-Tazzaq along Haji Lane

Friday night:
Malam Pentas at Malay Heritage Centre with Kopi
followed by dinner and sheesha at El-Sheikh
I was super groggy and broke too

Saturday morning:
Heart for Art Charity in school, played Captain's Ball and Football with the Med guys

Saturday evening:
Supported the Lions along with 55,000 others at the National Stadium with Zhihao and Geoffrey
Too many taunts and flying-nike poster-paper aeroplane-homing missiles to remember

Saturday night/Sunday morning:
Fetched the sister at Changi Airport
Drove to the former Hazwani at Clementi for supper
Sister's friends crashed my house

The rest of Sunday:
A day with Guyton and/or Snell?
Don't count on it.

How about sleep? YEAH....!

Funny I used the word weekend, when it involved Thursday and Friday as well. I don't care lah. My weekends have 4 days!

enough already

2007-01-25T00:14:00.000+08:00

How can people say that everyone is a leader?
This thing about everyone is a leader is overstated, overused and I'm jaded already.
If you know you've got it, you don't need no leadership training camp.
You don't need motivational talks.
You may feel down at times but it is just God's test of your skills.
You have innate skills already so use it.
But if you have doubts about your quality, obviously you don't have it.
Training can improve you slightly but you will never reach the levels of those who really have it.
So...
Leave the leading to the real leaders.
Prophet Muhammad, Gandhi, Martin Luther King.
You?
You really sure you belong to those names above?

just something I suddenly thought of

2007-01-11T00:16:00.000+08:00

The Popular Junkie The Popular Junkie is a person who is always fascinated by all things popular. Most of often he or she lets popular culture dictates his or her thinking and end up following the popular trend. He feels it cool to be following popular culture, because then, he is also part of the popular group. If not, then he feels left out, incomplete and insecure about himself. He is most comfortable when he is around his group of fellow Popular Junkies. Among them, they have all things popular, wear all things popular, talk all things popular and eat all things popular. Crumpler bags, iPods, adidas originals jackets, converse sneakers, Sony Ericsson Walkman mobile phones, that Justin Timberlake album, the likes.
And when they are together in a group, individually they are assessing one another. Who has something new - that is popular - which the others don't? Then, there will be a craving to also own that particular new popular item. And more. And a new cycle of craving begins. A vicious cycle. It is almost like trying to outdo one another in the popularity junkies stake, but in a subtle non-competitive way. I think we have lotsa them here in Singapore. Don't you think so?

On another note, Suria shows are getting rather addictive. I am transforming into a Makcik TV, but well done Suria!

You know that famous Marilyn Monroe pose? It wasn't the underground blowers that got her dress flapping. It was:

tres bien

2007-01-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

my favourite part of the whole vacation was going to paris. okay i lied. it was going to old trafford to watch manchester united play. but the trip to paris was more special, i think. somehow, everything that i learnt from french class came back. it came flooding back. without me having to open up any books to revise whatsoever. i bought metro tickets for my family, ordered lunch and dinner, booked taxis, negotiated prices, read signs on signboards, asked for directions. and it was all in french. with the correct sentence structure and grammar and proper pronounciation. it made me tremendously happy when they understood me. and i understood them back. it is a miracle i can still remember the language after all of these years. and to hear the natives speak the language, awwe it's so beautiful. madame faussat was right. i should have gone to france then. i would have loved it even more. now i feel like writing her a thank you email. only thing is, i don't have her email address. this sucks.

and paulo coelho writes that we all understand and speak 2 languages. one, the language of the people. we use this language to communicate with other human beings. two, the language of signs. God communicate with us through signs and we can sometimes understand them.

whaaat

2007-01-03T03:29:00.000+08:00

Fairuz --

[noun]:

A master of storytelling

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

ifonlyyoulistenmore

2007-01-01T02:42:00.000+08:00

have i told you?
I hate conversations.

and I love Manchester United.

my favourite song that I picked up having spent one fricking cold evening at Old Trafford for United's last game of 2006 versus Reading:

Mooooouuuuriiiinnhhoooo,
Are you listenin'?
Keeeeeeep the trophy glistenin',
We'll be back in May,
To take it away,
Walking in Fergie wonderland...

pass

2006-12-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

haha shit i passed the driving test. no more L plate. no more bbdc lessons. no more abusive pakcik instructors.

but shit la, no car.

hahaha shiok stuff i drove all the way to safti to fetch iylia and then fetch izzat at his house at bukit merah then to vivo city. shiok stuff. considering i only received my temporary driving license hours ago. hahahaha. yay! kopi i passed earlier than you. i even knocked down pole during vertical parking. but tester was kind to me. we went to vivo city earle swensens to have dinner. coz jau my brother has just returned from london. hahaha that kid spent the first day back with his minah la who else. and then we walked around a bit before screwing off. i send izzat home first before almost getting lost in bukit merah. but no lah. i can find my directions no problem. i wanna drive some more. just like what shahira felt like. some newbie enthusiasm is good. hahaha.

and i'm flying off to europe tomorrow morning. byebye. you won't see me till semester begins. next year. yay byebye.

have fun anat group! at yingliang's house! hahaha.

spinese and engalay

2006-12-18T13:03:00.000+08:00

Remember there was some hoo-haa when Stephen Rahman-Hughes acted as Hang Tuah in the musical Puteri Gunung Ledang? Alah when the makciks made some noise lah "why eh some ang moh become Hang Tuah...?" My message to the makciks: Wake up and smell Globalisation!

Because why? Because in another musical that is going to debut in New York very soon, Placido Domingo the Spanish tenor is going to act as Emperor Qin Shi Huang in the musical The First Emperor. Maybe Stephen Rahman-Hughes had some if not very little Malay blood in him. But Placido Domingo being even mildly Chinese? Woh...

Somebody call for a DNA test!

just to paint a bleak picture

2006-12-15T12:34:00.000+08:00

Snell's Clinical Anatomy
Wheater's Functional Histology
Lippincott's Biochemistry
Netter's Atlas of Human Anatomy
Guyton's Textbook of Medical Physiology

sampai next year habis pun tak akan habis baca.
ishhh.
kalau habis baca pun tak habis faham.
double ishhh.

But at least I know I've made one correct diagnosis already this year. A hairline rib fracture. I palpated the point on the rib (the fifth rib) and asked some questions. Cos it's the fifth rib, which means it's near his nipple, he had to shift his nipple away before I palpated. I did not want to touch his nipple. YUX! Who's that person? Ahhh just somebody famous enough within the community. Or maybe infamous. Haha. Doesn't matter. He checked it with a doctor and I was correct, X-ray proven. What matters: I made a correct diagnosis.
YAY not bad I learn ok I did not zombie through med sch sem 1.

S03B we're having a gathering soon. Tomorrow evening. Arab St. Be there!

holiday is finally here, you hear?

2006-12-10T18:26:00.000+08:00

And now there is finally a proper breather since school properly began. There are so many things that are starting to excite me, such as pumping again (gosh, the wasting away is awful) and driving. This is it, just 4 more lessons and I'm sitting for the driving practical test. InsyaAllah, good stuff good stuff. I'm hoping the tester is good to me. Then JAU can come back from his LONDON and we can relak again one times good one. Last night was great, we overnighted at Rudy's, coz his parents went for a holiday and he needed company. HAHA. Izzat Iylia were there too, to wallop so many slices of pizza and chicken wings and waffles. Shiok stuff. Then Adz and Kopi turned up in the morning when Iylia had left. And we went Vivo City to relak again. Everyone bought something there, out of fun.

And I can't wait for Dec 21. It's my Eurotrip. Manchester, London, Paris and Rome. Yay :)

There was a time this year when DOWNSTAGELEFT came together to celebrate Hari Raya. Only that we went back to the 60s & 70s - the P. Ramlee era - and dressed up to style, like so:

fun!

kebutuhan

2006-12-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

kebutuhan = keperluan

sedar tak yang kita semua ni ada kebutuhan?
dan sesetengah dari kita ni juga ada butuh (kaum Adam lah)
dan butuh tu sendiri ada kebutuhannya juga (hehe)

pelik,
aku terlihat perkataan tuhan terselit dalam perkataan kebutuhan itu sendiri
adakah elemen spiritual iaitu ketuhanan sesuatu yang kita semua perlukan dalam hidup?
macam, kalau takde tak sah gitu
betul ke?

pelik nombor dua,
kamus dewan memberikan contoh ayat di bawah ni:
"aku ni tak butuh wang"
betul ke? lebih-lebih lagi dari kamus melayu
ramai ke orang kita yang tidak butuh wang?
semua orang sekaya-raya manapun, tak akan tak pernah butuh wang
lebih kaya lebih dia butuhkan wang
habis tu, kaum melayu kita ni?
dahlah purata gaji bulanan kita adalah yang terendah berbanding dengan kaum cina dan india
dan peningkatannya juga yang terendah
siapa kita nak bohong dengan "aku ni tak butuh wang"
mungkin kamus kita kamus yang terlalu ideal
buat apa kita ikut kamus kalau hidup ni jauh dari yang ideal?

dahlah, aku lebih suka baca Guyton dan Snell
aku nak baca Guyton dulu, macam syiok baca Guyton

aku baru teringat!
tet tet tet tet tet tet tet tet tet butuh!
hahaha memori bolasepak di stadium kallang

Respons dari DOWNSTAGELEFT

2006-11-29T21:24:00.000+08:00

Maklum balas yang mencurah-curah terhadap inisiatif segolongan mahasiswa NUS yang mementaskan ' melayu.com.sg' sememangnya amat menggalakkan. Namun, tidak dapat dinafikan bahawa terdapat beberapa maklum balas yang walaupun berniat baik, telah tersasar dari tujuan asalnya kerana kurangnya penelitian yang terperinci.

Dalam usaha mereka untuk mewarisi tampuk pemerintahan di dalam masyarakat, golongan muda amat memerlukan sokongan padu dan bimbingan daripada mereka yang telah lama menyumbang kepada kemajuan masyarakat dan jauh lebih berpengalaman di dalam perlaksanaan sesuatu inisiatif; ringkasnya: warga veteran.

Amatlah menyedihkan jika fokus utama perbincangan lebih tertumpu kepada poster pementasan 'melayu.com.sg' dan bukan pementasan itu sendiri. Bahkan, tanggapan yang dibuat mengenai pementasan tersebut dibuat tanpa pemberi maklum balas itu sendiri menghadiri pementasan tersebut. Malahan, pihak pengurusan Espalanade dan juga DOWNSTAGELEFT sendiri telah mengadakan sesi soal jawab dan maklum balas sesudah persembahan tersebut bagi menjawab pertanyaan dan juga menerima saranan/kritikan dari penonton sendiri.

Sayangnya, peluang ini tidak dimanfaatkan oleh pihak-pihak tertentu yang lebih selesa membuat tanggapan yang melulu.

Sesuatu ide mahupun mesej di dalam sesebuah pementasan tidak terbatas hanya kepada sebuah poster. Jika keberkesanan sesuatu pementasan hanya dinilai berdasarkan sebuah poster semata, maka mereka yang berkecimpung di dalam bidang seni pementasan hanya perlu menumpukan daya minda mereka hanya kepada rekaan poster tanpa perlu menghabiskan wang, tenaga dan masa untuk menyiapkan sebuah pementasan yang bermutu.

Sokongan dan galakan juga perlu diberikan kepada generasi muda yang mahu mendatangkan suatu perubahan yang positif dan tidak menjadi golongan yang pasif semata. Jika sesuatu cetusan idea diremehkan melalui tanggapan semata, di manakah letaknya ruang bagi menjana minda yang progresif? Bagaimanakah dapat kita menyahut cabaran Perdana Menteri kita yang inginkan lebih ramai belia melibatkan diri di dalam hal ehwal kemasyarakatan dan menerajui kepimpinan masyarakat jika masih wujud sikap suka memperlekehkan usaha di kalangan masyarakat kita ini.

Objektif utama 'melayu.com.sg' adalah untuk mengkaji soal identiti Melayu dengan suatu kajian yang tidak terikat mahupun tertakluk kepada pegangan agama kita. DOWNSTAGELEFT dan panel skrip bagi pementasan tersebut ingin mengupas isu-isu yang berkaitan dengan identiti Melayu berdasarkan watak-watak yang wujud dan bukan direka seperti watak seorang wanita yang mengamalkan hubungan sejenis (lesbian), seorang tua yang menghabiskan kebanyakan masanya di masjid dan juga seorang ibu tunggal. Nilai-nilai yang dipegang oleh watak-watak ini akan mengetengahkan kepada penonton betapa nilai-nilai tersebut menyumbang kepada identiti Melayu itu sendiri.

Memang tidak dapat dinafikan bahawa seringkali perkataan Melayu dikaitkan dengan istilah Muslim namun sepertimana yang tertera di atas, ' melayu.com.sg' cuba menangani isu identiti ini dari aspek kemanusiaan, tanpa tertakluk kepada nilai-nilai keagamaan dan apa juapun nilai pegangan kita semata-mata.

Saya bersetuju dengan Puan Asmidar yang istilah "Melayu" mencernakan keindahan, kelembutan, kecantikan dan ini amat bersesuaian dengan orang Melayu itu sendiri. Namum di dalam menegakkan nilai yang ideal ini, perlukah kita membelakangkan realiti sebenar masyarakat kita. Adakah kita mengetepikan ibu-ibu tunggal yang terlanjur dan membiarkan remaja-remaja kita hidup dengan label "Hanyut" sedangkan inilah realiti masyarakat kita kita sebagaimana yang diketengahkan oleh Encik Alami Musa di dalam sesi dialog dengan mahasiswa Melayu Islam di NUS baru-baru ini? Beliau menekankan hakikat ini agar usaha kita untuk menjadi suatu masyarakat yang inklusif tidak perlu mengetepikan sebarang individu pun. Dasar inilah yang mendorong tercetusnya idea bagi ' melayu.com.sg'. Penyelidikan dan temubual telah dilakukan oleh pihak penulis dan pelakon bagi memahami dan mendalami watak-watak ini bagi melicinkan proses penyampaian mesej kepada para penonton. Proses ini diberikan penelitian yang amat teliti di dalam rangka membina suatu masyarakat yang progresif tanpa mengetepikan sebarang individupun.

Bahkan, selain daripada terhibur, terdapat sebilangan besar daripada penonton yang meninggalkan Esplanade pada hari pementasan tersebut dengan suatu kesedaran tentang perlunya mereka melakarkan sesuatu untuk mengubah dan memperbaiki keadaan masyarakat. Tidak kurang pula bilangan penonton dari kalangan "emas" kita yang menyanjung usaha DOWNSTAGELEFT untuk menganalisa watak-watak yang selama ini dibiarkan membisu dan menderita di dalam kesibukan kita membina masyarakat "cantik."

Pihak DOWNSTAGELEFT akan tetap menggunakan pendekatan pementasan bagi mengetengahkan isu dan realiti masyarakat kita. Pendekatan ini, beserta dengan usaha-usaha persatuan-persatuan, badan-badan dan individu-individu yang lain diharapkan dapat menyumbang kepada tercetusnya suatu masyarakat yang bukan sahaja menyedari akan nilai-nilai bangsanya yang ideal, namun juga menerima dengan hati yang terbuka akan realiti sebenar masyarakat kita.

DOWNSTAGELEFT masih muda dan perjuangan kami masih jauh. Oleh itu kami menerima sebarang teguran dan kritikan dari mana-mana pihak. Namun, amatlah diharapkan agar teguran yang diberi biarlah adil, bernas dan mengemukakan alternatif yang konstruktif tanpa perlu merendah-rendahkan daya usaha kami.

Sebelum saya akhiri, ingin juga saya jelaskan bahawa DOWNSTAGELEFT adalah kumpulan teater yang berdiri sendiri tanpa sembarang kaitan bersama Persatuan Bahasa Melayu Universiti Kebangsaan Singapura (PBMUKS). DOWNSTAGELEFT ditubuhkan awal tahun 2006 dan dianggotai oleh mahasiswa-mahasiswa yang bukan sahaja dari Universiti Kebangsaan Singapura ataupun yang berbangsa Melayu sahaja.

Semoga Allah meredhai setiap sumbangan kita terhadap kemaslahatan masyarakat khususnya dan sekaligus umat manusia amnya.

Yang benar,
Fezhah Maznan
Pengarah Artistik
DOWNSTAGELEFT

H/P: 91990977
E-mel: downstageleft@gmail.com

brouhaha

2006-11-22T22:37:00.000+08:00

"Kalau inilah realiti yang akan ditunjukkan oleh orang-orang yang keluar dari menara gading, saya betul-betul sedih."

I would say that this is the reality shown not by future graduates. But this IS the reality shown by several groups within the Malay community itself, and these groups traverse various educational levels, especially those in the lower rungs of the educational ladder. We have seen our fellow Malays in such revealing tops in the streets (an obvious sign of the infiltration of Western influence), and we shake our heads each time. Or we write in to the local newspaper. Meaning we are not ready to accept this culture into our own.

So we had our play to ask this question to our audience. We shall present to you a non-mainstream culture, somthing that the society calls 'a problem'. We present this problem to you in the perspective of the affected problem individual himself (or herself). We are probing you, our Malay community, with these problems. We are not offering solutions (in response to the first article which is hoping the play would unearth solutions for such problems). We believe offering solutions will be rather limiting and restrictive and will undermine the whole idea of theatre, which is suppose to probe questions and awareness and perhaps, reveal some understanding. In that sense, giving solutions would be to cheat our audience. And who are we to give solutions? Anyway, back to the problem, the answer as to whether our community can accept such cultures is now apparent. The answer is no (since we are still so concerned about dressing!). Or maybe not yet. Or maybe, never. I'm not saying it is a bad thing that we do not accept such things. Maybe never is better for our society.

The point is, I think ultimately it is good that we are discussing these issues. If this is the effect achieved for the rest, then I believe we have achieved some form of success just from our publicity of the production itself, even though it is achieved via controversial means.

However, sometimes we do get ahead of ourselves. And failure to take a step back to see the bigger picture may lead to disastrous outcomes. I think it is a valid comment that we observe tata-susilah and also kesopanan pakaian even though we want to throw a burning controversial social issue at society, in our pursuit of theatre. I think we could have exercised more restraint but we didn't hold back. Sometimes in theatre, one cannot hold back, but in other areas, one should learn to not take a step too far. I guess then this as a lesson for everyone?

"Buatlah sesuatu yang boleh dijadikan ikutan dan contoh yang baik sesuai dengan ilmu yang dimiliki."

I can agree with this statement. Here I hope what I have offered you as my take on the brouhaha as something that is 'sesuai dengan ilmu yang dimiliki'.

MELAYU.COM.SG

2006-11-19T12:46:00.000+08:00

"Aku nak sembahyang, dia tak nampak sembahyang aku."
"Ish kau tengok pompuan ni, tak habis-habis talipon aku pasal reception."
"Kids? You don't have to get married to have kids."
"Aku tak tau plak sejak bila kain nih ada magic."
"My dad's a Muslim and my mum, a Catholic."
"I know I am a Malay, but no, I refuse to live like one, with such disappointing attributes."
"Ada empat pompuan kat rumah ni, semua pemalas. Semua tak boleh harap."
"Aku tak peduli. Aku akan tetap pergi Hard Rock bila ada Reggae Nite."
"Kau ingat budak muda nak sangat ke tengok wayang kat masjid tu?"
"Sayang...bangun sayang. God, I love the way you look when you're asleep."
"Mana kau? Beranakkan dia, diri dah setengah mati, mana kau?"
"Ini interview untuk apa? Anak ni dari universiti mana?"

Inilah Melayu kita dan masalah-masalah Melayu kita. Bukan semuanya dapat dipaparkan tapi sekadar yang mampu, apa yang lebih menarik itulah yang dipaparkan. Bukanlah Melayu kita ni hanya bermasalah sahaja, cuma menerusi masalah inilah kami harap dapat mengetengahkan kelompok-kelompok yang mungkin dilupai, tidak dihiraukan, diketepikan sebelah, dan mungkin terputus hubungan sekaligus. ia sebagai cerminan untuk kita semua masyarakat Melayu Singapura. Tapi, sediakah kita menerima mereka? Adakah mereka itu memang telah terlangkah jauh sungguh untuk dikembalikan ke pangkal jalan? Atau adakah kita akan terus buta dan membabi-buta dan buat-buat buta?

Jawablah sendiri. Aku akan mengemaskinikan diari maya ku bila masa mengizinkan.

you know what you are missing. i have just the solution:

2006-11-02T01:01:00.000+08:00

17 & 18 NOV 8PM
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TICKETS ON SALE AT SISTIC

watcha waiting for?

on a rainy night from kembangan

2006-10-30T14:25:00.000+08:00

Taxi Driver: Hallo! HALLO! Why you never cancel?
Me: You are calling me now, how to cancel?
TD: Hallo!? You better cancel...You make booking what...Call the office, the office is calling me...
Me: HELLO? If you are calling me now, how I call the office? You hang up now then I can call office to cancel. You put down now.
TD: No Why you never cancel? I cannot pick up passengers know.... You quickly call now. Must call now.
Me: Since when do people cancel taxi booking?
TD: Mister you better call the office hor. You make me drive here all the way then never wait for me.
Me: But another taxi came earlier.
TD: No NO I want to know why you never call office.
Me: I called but the office say "Please hold while we connect you to a Customer Assistant". But the Customer Assistant never pick up.
TD: You call Office nowwwwww!!
Me: (pasrah) okok fine.
TD: THANK KYUK!

'melayu.com.sg'

2006-10-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

the absolute reason for keeping 17 & 18 November free

craziest toys this raya!

2006-10-09T00:34:00.000+08:00

latest stikfas action figures, now available at all leading toystores. batteries sold separately.

gua nak cakap sikit.
wa tak makan nasi belen.
wa tak main.
nasi belen lu boleh simpan sua.

playing & skiving

2006-10-06T23:10:00.000+08:00

Last monday I played soccer at SRC field. I rushed down straight after Physiology class. I didn't stretch, obviously can't drink water coz I'm fasting. And then later in the match, I pulled my hamstring. To be exact, I pulled my biceps femoris long head. Weiliang says Haram! How can you pull you hamstring? Your HAM-string? Hahahahaha. Cock.

I missed pbm iftar. I went for my mandarin class. See, I'm a good boy. But I donated anyway.

I have not pumped or run for a long long time. Nevermind, Ramadhan is for cutting. Can see top 4 already. Hahahaha.

Today, at the Anatomy Hall, there were removing the skin of a newly arrived cadaver. But the dick was erected. Wonder when will it go down. Hmmm. Oh there was this book that Ghani loves to buy, something like a Malay Reader's Digest. I think it's called...I forgot what it's called. It contained this article about this man who had a heartattack while masturbating. So he died with his hands cupped around his erected genitals. Kesian seh. Tapi kelakar jugak.

I...dah ah dah malas.

OH keep 17&18 November free.

JAUHARI FAREWELL TRIBUTE

2006-09-29T19:58:00.000+08:00

ON this very day, one of my brothers will be leaving me. He has packed his bags and is bracing himself for what will be an overwhelmingly intimidating and challenging experience. But he is there because he is pursuing his ambitions. He has dreams, big dreams. And this is but one of the steps that he has chosen to take so as to get that one step closer to realising those big dreams. He knows how big the assignment is. He knows himself that he is a standard-bearer for the community. He knows will be constantly watched, what with the prestigious scholarship that he has under his belt. He knows all the sacrifices, long hours, struggles and sickness that he went through have so far paid off.

Now, for the big moment. Now, for the real world. Now, for real. He will be leaving behind his dearest parents, precious siblings, endearing teachers, special loved one and his brotherhood of sorts. But for sure, for damn sure, there is no looking back. This boy is what he is. He will do all of us proud. But for this, I say, do yourself proud JAU!

Truly a bastion of what is right and honourable.

A tribute to
Mohamed Jauhari B Mohd Arsad
Imperial College London, UK

MY SIS IS IN MANCHESTHER

2006-09-25T11:00:00.000+08:00

and she visited Old Traffod yesterday. Shit.

makkau! gambar classic seh!

2006-09-24T15:38:00.000+08:00

habislah korang-korang muka yang tercampak dalam gambar sec1 ni. jangan terasa ya? :) buat kenangan.

APA LU TENGOK

2006-09-15T23:46:00.000+08:00

AKU PUNYA SUKA AH

2006-09-01T00:08:00.000+08:00

MEMBERS FOR LIFE

it's been 4 days..

2006-08-17T16:54:00.000+08:00

Eh ALAMAK. I missed yesterday's DOWNSTAGE LEFT event man. Sounded fun. But ergh, next time InsyaAllah. Medicine's been fun. So far it's been good. Nothing big. Lessons are catered to jog your memory after the long break from studies. And there are plenty of long breaks in between sessions these days. Hours spent doing nothing, but too short to go home.

But I'm sad. Rather dissatisfied. I need to pump.

OH! ADZFAR got his driving license this Tue! Ait ait. Powerlah mat. Truly the one who knows how to drive. 12 points, so far the lowest amongst those who have passed. Not to mention those who failed, like Kopi. Haha Kopi hopeless sia. His points are enough to count as ...rugby scores? ayye. Yeah man, this year's Hari Raya, we have a dedicated driver, though Jau will be in UK. Haha ait. I have FTT after this. This the only time this week I'm home this early. Thanks to Prof Kaur who dismissed us early for anat prac. YAY hope I pass easily then can book driving test already. InsyaAllah.

KILL.

KILL!

2006-08-14T00:57:00.000+08:00

Suddenly, I realise that tomorrow is the start of lessons. Proper lectures, when school starts at 8am again. And, I somehow feel sooo unprepared. I don't know what's gonna happen. I am shrouded in a cloud of uncertainty. It's at a stage where I feel thoroughly uncomfortable and yet I also feel totally helpless. Este says it's the university blues. Hakim says take things as they come, just like what Harun says. I think it's a bout of something I dunno, something intangible, something which is enraging something inside me, something that's making me angry, uncomfortable, sad and angry again in endless cycles. I think it has happened to me before. I felt it more than once in RJ, but I can't pinpoint to what extent this current bout is similar its predecessors.

KILL! I certainly need to pump. I hate this disintegration.

On a separate note - a rather more upbeat one too - I actually managed to persuade Kopi, Rudy and Izzat to come for the barbecue. Haha. Not bad. Actually Rudy was bluffed into coming but it didn't matter (",) coz anyway there are lots of people there that knows him and the rest of them. Thank God for them. If not it'd be another one of those out-of-place moment again. Pui. Good food, great conversation all round. Sure makes the start of school look not so bleak after all. And found out that Shaf got into Med!! YA finally!! I bet she's very happy :) good stuff shafia! So now the "halal presence" certainly looks more impressive.

And the funniest thing was that that night, Siti Fairuz had to send like soo soo many people home and none lived near her. Haha damn poor thing ah. All the way to Boon Lay at like almost midnight. Apparently, we spent nearly an hour in the car travelling to and fro. HAHA gila ah damn long. But she the pro. Next time it's our turn to drive her around. Return the favour lah katakan.

Ok selamat. I want to sleep.

And Liverpool beat Chelski 2-1. HAHA TAKE THAT JOSE MOURINHO! But I still support Man Utd. FULHAM YOU WATCH OUT!

Goodnight :)

KILL!

some things to think about

2006-08-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

on national day, we happened to be picnicking right beside ariff (rjc) and his family. i had fallen asleep for awhile in the tent, then when i woke up, ariff wanted to play soccer against us. so we played. haha, but the unfortunate thing is, we all left with scars and bruises that can match any rugby game i've been in. my shin can bear testimony. it has 3 red bruised marks. yeap. good eh?

i am quite nervous about school. i have yet to buy the more important books (snell, netters, guyton) and the whole schedule about school. i don't know about the timetable for medicine, whether we can take up other modules like ppl from other facs. all i know so far is everyday lecture begins at 8. and should end by 12, or latest 1. then there is probably tutorials, practicals or other things like First Aid! haha. and CCA. yes. CCA. this despite me thinking that i will go thru uni without a single CCA. hahaha fool. but somehow, this makes me feel occupied. occupied in a good way. not occupied because i have to dig a trench, make sure my platoon mates are also digging and observing safety, make sure the concertina wires and barbed wires are up, make sure water is replenished, etc. hahaha. that is occupied in a bad way, to me.

i have driving now. this after having consumed so much durian, potato chips, and a full load of rice and fruits. i think i'm gonna be sleepy. the last time i went for a night slot like this, the instructor asked: Hey isn't it bedtime for you already?! HAHAHAHA. boo to that. i take night lessons coz it's so much cheaper. cheap is good. saving is good. understand?

owned

2006-08-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

I think I just owned myself today. How on earth does one get kicked out of mandarin class? I just did. I must restart next week. From Stage 1. Argh. Nvm slowly la ok one step at a time.

And last nite, Monday night, had to go all the way to Bishan to pump. Thanks ah Jau. Abit jauh considering I had the longest meeting I've ever been to that day. Hahaha.

And it's quite disconcerting to know random people visit your blog. Well, blogs are probably meant to be this way.

Tomorrow, national day, so I think I shall pump, then blade and run. Hahahahaha. Work it!

2006-08-08T17:39:00.000+08:00

now i think i want to watch the campaign to confer the public service medal to jbj. sounds...controversial! sounds good.

....

2006-08-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

hahaha i played two matches in two days. considering how unfit i was, those two matches serve as a reminder that i have to run. hahaha. i heard foxtrot just did 10click run. haha im sure i will never be able to finish half the distance in my current state of stupor. but whatever. i was walking throughout the matches. nevermind la, now old man already. i think my knee is buckling. maybe can get pes downgrade. hahaha. but i scored today. so who cares. yeah and i'm going to school tomorrow morning. that's like gonna be the routine for like the rest of my life already. yay. or boo. it doesn't matter. i have made the choice. it's time to live by it. so goodnght and have fun in brunei. hahaha.

2006-08-04T19:16:00.000+08:00

eh alamak i forgot to add this.

I wanna watch THE SILENCE OF THE KITTENS by Wild Rice. This play has got some good comments in the papers. Only thing is, I've nobody to watch it with me. BOO!!!

gombak can go home okay

2006-08-04T19:04:00.000+08:00

i hate gombak gym. or rather, i hate pumping alone. i just got back anyway. it is on a day like this when i question whether it was worth it even. the money invested. the time wasted. ah loser ah. i got tired in like maybe 5mins. so unmotivated. delta gym rocks, especially the new routine that i tried out for almost 3 weeks already. with jau and izzat, we would maghrib at ar-rabitah first then pump the night away. definitely seeing the results. but tonight i had to make an exception coz of driving. i booked a 940pm slot well in advance, seeing how soon school will start so i had to chiong as much as i can while i'm still free. 940pm slots are like the cheapest. and i kind of like driving at night. argh i'm still pissed at the lacklustre gym session. i hate gombak gym!!!

on another note, can't wait for bola tomorrow. hahaha. with such an unproductive session just now, i will definitely not be aching for a good game. aiiit. adz that mat got stupid dental appointment so he's not coming, argh. boo. who ask you to wear braces? argh i hope my boots are like not garing. if not confirm pecah tomorrow. puas selisih jauhkan.

dum bass

2006-08-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

ohkay

Driving. I'm still a noob when it comes to clutch control. The car jerks. Maybe if I look at it from the outside, it should probably jerk like those gangsta-rapper crazy cadillacs which can actually dance. Haha loser. But, today's one was fun, coz I just went at 70kph almost all the way. I went to I think jurong west agaknya, some mrt stations there (Chinese Garden? or was it Lakeside?) entah. The western side of Singapore only reminds me of one thing: OCS! Haha. Then I think the instructor kenyang lepas lunch, so he ngantuk then fell asleep. I think it's typical for these instructors to fall asleep. So I drove all the way to Sungei Kadut. Haha. That's like where so many factories are. But now and then, he would mumble his instructions, while his eyes are closed. Haha. Then sometimes, he would put his five fingers in front of my face - that's a signal that I'm exceeding 50kph. Haha. Then he goes back to sleep. But shiok ah. A break away from the monotonous Bukit Gombak area.

Then I went to NUS for the PBM welcome tea. Ait. Not bad. Good food good brownies. I signed for downstage left and persuratan. Hoho. Time is the essence, boy. Oh, I think the MS people are supposed to call, semalam, but still no calls yet. Hurhur.

And I realised I should sign up for as many classes as I want to this semester. Coz I don't think I'll get to do tutoring at all until earliest Dec. Coz now, the period's very near prelims for most people. Very near exams, very unlikely there are students looking for tutors. So I shall just keep my eyes and ears peeled if by any chance (or, par hasard, haha I found this in my French jotter book) oppurtunities come along. So, if you know of students, TELL ME!!! I think I'm qualified enough to teach, aren't I?

For almost a month already, I haven't touched the soccer ball. Coz simply there hasn't been any oppurtunity to play. Then suddenly, 3 matches come up so quickly. Tomorrow the med people wanna play at the field, but its from 6-8pm, macam takde maghrib gitu eh. Somemore, I've driving at night so it would be rush. And on sat morning, I've to choose either to play with the MedFac soccer people or Peiqian with a game against the J1s. Since my 'beloved' coach Mr Kevin Low called up, I shall have to vee MedFac. Next time la MedFac. I wanna play with my friends. Haha. Ayye I don't have the MedFac soccer guys' numbers. Shoots they'll confirm be a man short. Haha. Die. But it's so exciting. Long time never touch ball.

OKAY that just came out wrong.

selamat ah. nak baca Quran.

matric fair

2006-08-01T15:54:00.000+08:00

i love gym. i love pumping iron. my routine is back on track, now that i've found some partners to go with me.

i bought a laptop for school (and for play). should be a good buy, i hope. the only irritating part of it was the buying of the laptop itself. coz parents weren't allowed to even browse at the laptops, so how on earth are they suppose to compare models? coz in the end, the parents are paying. so they make the ultimate decision. then. then the paying alone takes you from point a to b to c to.... alot of points until you can find yourselves from mpsh to yih. and then at yih u still have to wait long long. dope.

and i like only signed up for ms and pbm. something which i thought i would not do. i dunno why. and i didn't sign up for any sports thing at all. why? ergh. dunno dun ask.

and i signed up for nus debit card. ergh...

and in my matric card, i look more like a coal-miner/coolie/slave labourer/illegal immigrant than a doctor.

but ayye... good stuff anyway.

before school starts,

2006-07-29T16:53:00.000+08:00

Despite my lackadaisical routine of slumbering around at home, I at least managed to reestablish a workout programme. Now I've managed two sessions already, thanks to having contacted Izzat and Iylia - these are guys who are still in NS, but whose commitments are far lesser than a serious trainee. Now the body feels good again, more alive, more invigorated, more ready for school. Time to get more into pumping. The feeling of ripped-ness and tearing/shredding is definitely awesome, a welcome boost to my lack of physical activity. It certainly bodes well for the remainder week or so of so-called freedom.

Oh yes, I'm driving more too. I want my license! Hopefully, by year's end, InsyaAllah. :)

the last hope

2006-07-26T14:11:00.000+08:00

When i visited Jun Ren yesterday, I chuckled to myself when I heard this:
That every year, there is someone from Raffles Rugby to claim the prestigious Infantry Sword Of Honour from his OCS stint from the January batch.

From Anand, to Cecil, to NingYan, to Kylash. All came from Raffles Rugby. This year, what happened was that there were a number of us (Raffles Ruggers) in OCS. So initially there were Jau, EC, Ang Wei, Joel Louis, Jon Yap, etc etc etc and me too. Most of them got posted to other places, like ADA for Joel Louis and Signals for Jon Yap. So the last one standing was guess who? ME! Haha I was the last hope. And that is well dashed by now. Coz I disrupted to do medicine! I mean not that I was in some position to get the SOH anyway, seeing how much I get whacked by my instructors for my relak approach to everything. Me and the army are like oil and water , they don't mix (is the word immiscible? ergh don't remember). Heh. But it sure feels good to know that I was the last hope. Damn damn good. I enjoy cheap thrills like this. :)

oh wait, Ananthakumar is still in Infantry. There is another one last hope!Or maybe Khalrul Anwar bin Yahya from the later batch! haha he has neck now hoorah!

LOOKING FOR A TUTOR?

2006-07-26T12:32:00.000+08:00

Assalamu'alaikum wr. wb.

LOOKING FOR A TUTOR?

Look no further. Anyone who's willing to improve his/her grades for the exams, just feel free to contact me, Fairuz, at 9746 4126 or anaktamingsari2@hotmail.com.

I will teach YOU the way to earn more As, insyaAllah, if you haven't already got them.
I will teach YOU the way to pass if all you want if just to not fail.
I will teach YOU to teach yourself the smarter way about handling exam questions.

So if you're a secondary school student (anything, sec1-4, doesn't matter) living in the West of Singapore, and are in dire need of tuition, please contact me at the abovementioned number.

I can teach Mathematics, Chemistry, Physics, Biology and Combined Science (and Additional Mathematics too if you wish).
Plus, I can help give you inputs for your Malay/Higher Malay at no additional costs (for the moment though) and supplement you with Malay reading materials.

Some background of myself:
Currently a first year Medical Student at NUS.
GCE O Level (2003): 6pts L1R5
GCE A level (2005): 4As, 2 Merits for Phy and Chem S Papers, B3 for GP
Call me up to find out more.

The lessons will be conducted at your home.
Scheduling/length of each session is flexible (e.g: 4-5 times a month, 1.5hr weekly sessions).
Fees are negotiable (I'm a first timer but don't worry, you'll be in good hands).

So do call, InsyaAllah.

THE front row bench

2006-07-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

I finally got down to proper driving lessons, as in practical, and yeah despite how easy it is, I had trouble with clutch control. Arranged with Joel to visit poor Jun Ren. Oh man, he is really really damn poor thing. So much to suffer yet so much still in store ahead of him. I personally felt good that I managed to talk so much with him, after so long. Definitely more than a year, since we last all sat down all over the front-row benches of RJ Canteen - traditionally shared by rugby, soccer, and hockey boys - to chitchat and lepak whenever we step foot in the canteen. Before morning assembly, that's where we met to discuss test answers which had been leaked from those who had taken theirs earlier. Or waiting for training to start, if no one was already playing touch by then. By touch, I mean touch rugby...well I'm sure you know. Or after training, to shower then to go for dinner. For me it would be to go for pre-dinner, coz I would still have dinner left for me at home. Or on non-training days, to wait for people to go for weights, watch movies yada yada. Ergh these days don't come back no more. Jun Ren is strong, he'll come back strong, let God be willing. :)

On another note, before I slept last night, I recited a few pages of the Holy Quran. One small step for man, one giant leap for mankind! Amin.

Our Lord! Give us in this world that which is good and in the Hereafter that which is good,and save us from the torment of the Fire'

Qur'an 2:201

medbooks & otherbooks

2006-07-23T13:28:00.000+08:00

After sifting through them books and booklists, I only found out that I really need these books for medicine. The rest I have already. Yay. Can save money :) And that website is damn powerful. I haven't even checked out the cd that is power-packed with tutorial answers passed down by the M2s. I hope all these help!

For anatomy:
1. Frank Netter's Atlas Of Human Anatomy
2. Richard S Snell's Clinical Anatomy for Medical Students

For Physiology:
1. Textbook of Medical Physiology (Guyton and Hall)

And, I finished reading The Zahir. So many truths in the book. Or is it just that when one picks up a book, one is just so convinced by the coherency of the author that everything he says is true. And the acomodador (that's a Mexican Indian term for the "giving-up point"), that's so true of everyone. The Zahir gives me a sign. It's time to find my own Zahir.

Ohwells, on to The Devil Wears Prada... :)

oops apadah!

2006-07-23T01:51:00.000+08:00

I unexpectedly woke up at 130pm today. I was thinking last night, hmmm, maybe wake up early to run. Maybe. But it never happened. I didn't even tidy up my shelves. But its not too bad, since all the med books are already there on the shelves. I realize I am lacking Anat books. Which is important, according to seniors. Maybe I can get them from Asrie. But why oh why do I have like 2 Biochem books? I even heard some seniors don't bother buying them, the notes are deemed sufficient. Heh it doesn't matter, I just appreciate all the help my cousin gave me. Handing the books down to me already is such a very kind thing, since the books are really really expensive wherever you go.

OH! And today, a very good buddy of mine, JAU, received his utmost gift so far. He was presented with the PSC Open Merit Scholarship, which apparently received some coverage from Suria. CONGRATULATIONS BRO! But omg I missed it! Sorry Jau! I wasn't home early enough so I missed the rerun as well. Argh. I think he's the sole Malay recipient of it this year. Wonderful achievement mat. Haha. But basket you must spend more time with us before you fly off. Okay? Don't just say InsyaAllah.

some light at the end of the tunnel...

in ocs, here we hang out...or get hung out to dry...

and who is diana?

so medicamp?

2006-07-21T22:00:00.000+08:00

Aloha Loyang. I was in Snow White. We won alot but then got like last. Like wth la!? So what I don't care. I think the M2s are super rich. And the M1s also. I bet all of them are like driving to school. In posh cars. Their own cars. Basket. And everyone's gonna be on the dean's list and mug super hard even though they say they won't. And buy everything, including books laptops and skeletons. Hah! But its fun coz Raymond Ong was there. Haha superduper cockster. And I like made some new friends here and there. Okla. So wtv. Typical orientation.

I don't care.

Nothing's stopping me, you, and all of us from wanting to get what we want.

InsyaAllah I will get what I want, if I work hard for it. InsyaAllah.

lazysunday

2006-07-17T13:19:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a lazy sunday spent almost entirely at home. But it was good I thought. I read a lot from The Zahir. And it also dawned on me that somehow whatever we are reading can mirror what we actually are facing in real life. I do feel like I am the main protagonist in The Zahir. Omg so when I was reading that book yesterday, I had to put it down a few times just for reality check. Haha so that I know I wasn't dreaming. My goodness. That is why Paulo Coelho is such a powerful man. Brazilians may be more known for their football and samba, but he is a pioneer in the art of writing. I tested my sony speakers, yah they do sound awesome. Good enough for me. :)

We went east coast to "briskwalk". Haha like real. My parents are too unfit. I suppose yesterday made no difference to me, I need to run soon. Or else, I will definitely grow fat. Growing fat, or worse, remaining thin but growing rotund around the waist is a no-no. Its one of my biggest fears. Haha. I will run. Soon. Haha:)

We went airport to eat at Swensens. Like eeeee. The portions are too small my goodness. Cheat my (father's) money. And the desserts are not that nice anymore. Why ah? Don't have QC ah?

bros

2006-07-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

I'm just online so often these days. Hee I wonder why :P But today I finally think I'll put a rest to my flagrant spending spree. I bought a Sony in-ear earphones which totally match my iPod Nano and they sound totally awesome. Haha that was at taka today. Which was after I had to queue up for almost an hour for Pirates tickets. Thankgod I still managed to grab the 530pm show for Iylia, Adz and Kopi. If not, none of them would have turned up. Haha. See lah, that's the life of a disrupted army boy. You also long for the weekend, coz at least you won't be so lonely with your bros around. Weekdays are the worst days. There is almost nobody around, so sad. Unless of course, you have camps to attend. Haha like nothing better to do like that. Exactly, because I've nothing better to do, I'm gonna attend another camp next week. Medicamp. Geez my inbox is constantly flooded with their posts, I end up getting irritated and just deleting them without reading. Haha :P So okay, stop spending so much money. Maybe I should spend more time sleeping. Sleeping, I heard, is a grand luxury in medicine school and later on in life as a doctor-to-be. Yup, InsyaAllah :) I feel like reading the Holy Quran byebye :)

runit

2006-07-15T13:15:00.000+08:00

i bought some last minute closing down sale items yesterday. quite important lah considering uni will start and i do not want to be wearing the same thing over and over again. hee. well thanks to adzfar i got further 15% off, saving me some more money. i really need to find in-ear earphones soon, the current ones that apple provides can't fit into my ears. argh. unless of course somebody wanna sponsor. what are the chances of that happening? zero huh.

i was almost late for driving theory just now. it was so boring. and dry as usual. so when they asked for volunteer to sit on the $40,000 chair with the airbag, i thought wth just volunteer la. haha, quite fun, the airbag suddenly explodes in front of me. haha the instructor obviously thought it was funny. merepek la. i shud haf signed up for BTT earlier then i can start practical earlier. now by the looks of things, i will have to start practical when school opens. ayye, that means, more nights and weekend burnt. haha but don't care ah, the faster i get my license, the better.

alright, gonna watch pirates with my bros later. time to catch up with 'em. seeya :)

reperio eeeeps

2006-07-14T12:33:00.000+08:00

Ola. The last few days were spent at NUS, had Camp Reperio with the malay&muslim society. OMG man, it's like its the first camp I went to alone, coz all my friends are still stuck in camp. NS liabilities. Ish ish, I've got my own liability to serve in maybe 6-7 years' time. So I was almost like a lost sheep. Haha. I was the only guy from my batch la. So it was kind of boring having to be in my situation. Further, I don't know any of the guys prior to this, except for maybe Ibnur and Raffli who were from RI/RJ... oh well... But I loved the Night Walk. Haha, shit Harun made me jump and scream lik shit in the abandoned house. Apa seh. Oh NUS macam eeeky la. Don't really fancy it so far. Kejap-kejap, "BAIK KAMAL! BAIK NADIA! BAIK HAFIZ!!" everything also BAIK this and BAIK that. It got irritating, if they didn't realize it. Yeah and the food sucked badly. The dinner at labrador cannot make up for the awful food thruout camp. OMG I am so negative. At least I know of more people entering NUS this year. Hmmm... My 5 years of intensive medicinal studies will begin in about a month's time and I'm so unprepared. But InsyaAllah, alang-alang menyeluk perkasam biar sampai ke pangkal lengan, so I will really put my all. InsyaAllah. :)

finale

2006-07-10T17:29:00.000+08:00

Forza Azzuri! Incredible incredible. That sums up Italy's performance at this World Cup Finals, so incredible that I had to use the word twice. I bet not many had expected them to be crowned World Champions, certainly not me. I was seriously thinking BRAZIL BRAZIL BRAZIL. Haha but oh wells, Ronaldo and Co, this was not your time. What a fitting farewell for Alessandro Del Piero, the forgotten golden boy of Italian football. And Pippo Inzaghi. And boy oh boy, Fabio Cannavaro looked every bit like the best defender in the world. No wonder Juve wins almost everything. Behind Cannavaro, they still have Gianluigi Buffon, the best keeper in the world (maybe Petr Cech may want to argue about this). He denied Zinedine Zidane in extra time what would have been a killer header. That save, with such an exquisite twisting of the torso with a single leap into the air to solidly palm the bullet-like ball into safety. Such poetry in motion. Such lovely movement that made my waking up at 2am all the more worth it.

Zizou zizou! Everyone would definitely ask "Pourquoi?" for that silly and foolish headbutt into the heart of Marco Materazzi, one of the many Italians who played like stallions that night. Zidane signed off his career with a maniacal red card, perhaps an ending that nobody would have predicted. But Zidane is special. After all, he came out of international retirement because of an encounter in his sleep. When he decides to hang up his golden adidas boots, let him do it in every way he wants. We do not have to feel sad for the way it ended. Let's just bid him a fitting "Au revoir!".

and i have to go for camp tonight. seeya on thursday when i'll be back InsyaAllah.

and i found this photo of my class at ronald's house. hahaha this was when hpf was still our civics tutor. hahaha. :)

dud

2006-07-09T12:21:00.000+08:00

I'm almost done reading Fight Club, boy oh boy is it an angsty book. Its almost like a me-against-the-world kind of book, which I happen to like. Haha. Brilliant novel, I should move on to watch the movie itself.

That aside, yesterday was supposed to an outing day, but in the end, people can't make it. So again, another burnt weekend. I don't care coz I got my Nano! Haha dig that.. Anyhow, I am such a techie noob. I had to ask Matin how to operate the iTunes software. Spent almost 2 hours on that thing alone last nite, so much so that I couldn't wake up for the Ger-Por 3rd/4th Place Playoff. I remembered in 1998 when I had prepared so much, including 2 alarm clocks plus coffee to wake up for the Brazil-France final, then I just simply overslept. Haha loser. Well, InsyaAllah for today's Italy-France final, it won't happen again. What are the chances of lightning striking twice?

And!!! Waiting for BTT to end is just excruciating! I can't move on to any practical lesson. That means my progress in driving will be stalled to almost the time to start uni. That means, I'll have to double up on night and weekend lessons, which means I'll also have to pay more and have less time at home and my parents won't be too happy and yada yada. You get my point ya? OMG that sounded like LTA Jarel. Haha.

I also realised I haven't had any workout the past week. Time to change that. Tomorrow morning, confirm, I'll head for the gym. Then again, after World Cup Finals, I might not be able to wake up! HAHA loser.

ala fight club

2006-07-04T23:16:00.000+08:00

The 3 ways to make napalm:

1) Mix equal parts of gasoline and frozen orang juice concentrate
2) Mix equal parts of gasoline and diet cola
3) Dissolve crumbled cat litter in gasoline until the mixture is thick

enjoy :)

one down

2006-07-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

I traipsed down to NUS today, UHWC to be exact, for my medical check up. It was supposed to be first thing in the morning. But, because I slept so late last night, I could only force myself to wake up at 11. What more, I went back to SAFTI to collect the letter that authorizes me to collect back my pink ic, my newest symbol of freedom. Freedom works on many levels, you'll soon realise this once you enter the army, I tell you. It's the one precious thing, besides your lives and your friend's lives, that you don't ever want to surrendur. Your weekend is the most basic level of freedom, and at certain places where I've been, it's the most looked-forward thing for everyone, including the commanders. Well, enough about the army.

I will have to adjourn back to CMPB this week. I still haven't collected my pink ic. :(

Looking around the greens, I saw sprinkles of freshmen having games. Wonder if the 2 camps I've signed up for are gonna be just the same... Eeeps, better be better. Well, at least my medical check up is done. One less hassle to confront with! Hoorah :)

eh...got alot of things to do la

2006-06-30T15:15:00.000+08:00

Finally, I get to disrupt. It is true what Wilson Ong told me. That the feeling of disruption is the best feeling you'll ever get in OCS. Ok, that as well as the end of Platoon Field Camp cum Ex Spade, and the end of all the other field camps for that matter. The last few days with the Medicine guys at Foxtrot was weird coz everyone else in the wing was rushing here and there to get things done while we just had to do saigang and become enemies during Ex Welcome. That was double good stuff besides being static targets for mosquitoes.

Now, what I really need to do is to sort myself out. For one, all the uniforms and bags from army are causing mayhem at home now. I need to first wash them, then pack them neatly into that big black giant duffel before I can safely store them one side. Then, I need to take out all the basic tees and JC books and notes to give them to someone else. Coz they are seriously taking up too much space in my room. I can't stand clutter. Then, I need to sort out the medicine books into my shelves, which is filled to the brim like germany's world cup stadia. Today I will go for an evening run and tomorrow will be soccer with Geoffrey and gang. That will be fun. And world cup quarter finals will take place too, how can i ever miss that? And I've signed up for Camp Reperio and Medicamp. Hahaha hope they're good fun. :) Suddenly I realise I have a lot of things to do. Oh must go for medical checkup and sign up for driving lessons. OMG I really have a lot of things to do.

2006-06-25T17:08:00.000+08:00

EH! BORINGNYAAAA!

this is so random. when in the army, you're bound to encounter such people.

2006-06-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

a view through the nighthawk. that's abraham jordan, yasdie, me and david daniel from left to right.

2006-06-22T23:44:00.000+08:00

thats me in front and yinghao at the back, truly shag even before platoon field camp had started.

2006-06-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

hand held rocket illum during gpmg live firing!

2006-06-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

watermelon heads at platoon field camp in the jungles of marsiling. this one i cannot forget

2006-06-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

foxtrot platoon 3 section 1 at the cadet mess during happy hour...

2006-06-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

the ippt run that got me gold in ocs

disruption!!!

2006-06-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

oh yes it's confirmed! disruption is on. just carry on till the 1st of july ans then that's it. goodbye infantry. on this fateful day, i called my section to come over for lunch cum tea. unfortunately, only 5 guys turned up, but thank god my instructor was available. such a nice young man. they loved the food obviously. i'm gonna collect my a level cert and yearbook tomorrow and probably play soccer. yep i doubt i will have such freewill to do any of such things once medicine starts. but the world cup is on. so wait...